I open my eyes to total darkness,
but the alarm is going off
so it must be time to rise again.
I breathe deeply, only dimly aware
that my breath has been way too shallow of late.
I peer into the darkness, and realize
that it feels lighter somehow.
“Ahh, yes,” I remember, suddenly, “I was having a nightmare!”
But the sun is just over the horizon now,
and will no doubt rise again soon;
I am just ahead of it today,
much like a New Moon.
Relief rushes through me, as it often does,
when waking from a bad dream over which I had no control of.
I welcome the false solidity of the reality surrounding me
and vow to put away the dream.
And gratitude for all that aids me
seeps through all the space “between”.
I am here now:
Sorrow, anger, fear and resentment
are no longer smothering me.
Smiling, I get out of bed.
Time to carry on with whatever this day brings.
A hint of shadow touches me…
Unless this is the respite
before the nightmare re-begins…