I am buckling under the weight of so many unshed tears;
drowning in a flood of sorrow, anger, shame, frustration and guilt…
But none of it is mine.
If you cannot or will not seek the personal, cleansing relief of crying yourself, know that someone else is crying for you.
No, tears will not heal your pain, or make it go away. They will not change your circumstance at all. If anything, they will only wash away the reserves, the deceits, the false promises you make to yourself to keep you going, when you absolutely know you can’t continue. But that, in itself, is a relief.
For at the bottom of the well you’re trying to avoid is a stability you cannot find where you are at, trying to fly above it all. There is darkness there, but also peace. And a chance to genuinely regain some strength.
So let it go, if you can. Break the dam by your own will, and release the tears threatening to unhinge you. You are not alone. I will happily sit with you, cry with you, and let you go.
That is my wish for you today – to free your self from this self-imposed delusion of “togetherness” (as in “having it all together”), and replacing it with the togetherness of sharing…
Peace, my friends… Peace.